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Post by animascura on Dec 3, 2004 16:01:12 GMT -5
I thought i should share some of my poetry, and then let you guys tell me how much you hate it, then have me ignore you all, then repeat with a new poem. First one i like, got a reaction out of people, especially my english teacher...reactions, whether good or bad, are a good thing, and mean that i win. Knife A Poem Several times I’d felt the pressure of the blade against my neck. Once again my hand pulled away. Feelings of extreme hatred for the world, for the people around, hatred for myself, rivaled a feeling of guilt, which inspired hesitation to complete the incision the knife would make. It was a hard choice, whether the knife was a release for myself. A form of escaping all the insults and ridicule, all the long evenings at home, confronting abusive parents who threw things at me when I arrived, or randomly beat me for just for being alive. Or just having to stand the torment of their fights, the cruelty of having to watch the world I lived in fall apart. And maybe the knife was a punishment for my failure. Failure to put up with the horrible parents that brought me up. Failure to take the name calling and feeling of uselessness as a sign that I was never good enough. A punishment for having fought back against them this long. All the rage repressed inside of me burst forth as haunting visions from my past resurrected. Memories that had left hate and anger bottled up once I decided not to deal with them. The flood of emotions surging through me, icy waters infused with my greed, jealousy, and need for revenge, brought the blade up to the same place. I felt a sharp pain. Slowly the blood flowed into my mouth, and with its sweet taste came the feeling of escape, and the reassuring calm, that everything was okay.
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Post by darkoneofpower on Dec 3, 2004 16:28:58 GMT -5
I don't know why but I like it. It's good, I can't wait to see some more of your stuff.
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Post by animascura on Dec 7, 2004 12:52:26 GMT -5
Im glad you like it, thx. ^^ I will put more up as soon as i find them. I have a tendency of loosing important things yet somehow the unimportant items are always there cluttering everything.
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Post by pandi on Dec 14, 2004 16:00:54 GMT -5
yes. i liked it too ^^ and of course i'm glad some of it didn't spawn from your own experiences.
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Post by animascura on Dec 22, 2004 21:57:45 GMT -5
Hmm....here is another poem. I recently came across it while cleaning my room. Some of it does not make sense...but it must've at the time i wrote it i guess. *shrug* here it is then.
And, In an Instant, A child’s memory remembered. More like a dream, awake A stroke of fate that sent her, Tumbling into an abyss, a recess In his mind where she, a soul, a ghost Could not escape. And why? When warm eyes penetrated his façade and pulled the pain from Under, materialized as tears. Tears that forever Marked her as a place where sorrow Gathered and dispelled. He had lived through life a warrior. Solemnity, his only curse, was but a gift, And apathy his friend. His sorrows grew, so deep inside And he, the greatest soldier, was, Not too small a man but, yes, a soul, Too modest to endure the burden of His massing demons. They slithered and escape, nibbled on His inner peace. Savagely they tore at The very things that kept him sane, and Just the same, devoured a conscience that kept him awake And, in an instant, A child’s memory remembered More like a dream, awake But far too late, that brought her love to him again. A drop of rain, a man insane, a mother For which tears remained and sorrows, Left his eyes and shattered on a cold floor. He wondered how it was that she would still come back and, in him, be The only one, in 20 years, in his entire lifetime. She made despair dispel and told a tale, and then he knew, she was the one, the only One, a lonely one, who even now beyond The grave, still brought him love. The demons left, a sea of red, a crimson River that took with it life and Welcomed death. He stopped both eyes, still Saw her face. With a scowl would come Shame, but a smile pierced his heart, his Tattered soul. And even now, to grieve into the grave With tears, behind a grave. She gave him love.
o.o
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Post by darkoneofpower on Dec 27, 2004 4:36:48 GMT -5
this is nicely written too though I must say I am slightly lost also. Yet even some meaning forgotten can be real great. Keep them coming. I can't wait for more. Thanks
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Post by animascura on Dec 29, 2004 17:03:31 GMT -5
I am saddenned <--(me) I had this amazing poem (or so my inflated ego and false sense of self worth told so) and the only copy i had was one i had printed out. After time it became tattered and torn, and when i found it, part of the page had disintegrated. I look frantically for another copy, via electronic means or a physicall one, but alas, it was to no avail. I tried reconstructing it as best i remember, but it is no where near as good as the original Anyways, here it is. Memories Her face Haunted and tease today, as yesterday, as ever. Icy blue eyes embedded into a cold slate of marble. A kind face no longer warm, yet still inviting. Laughs muffled by stone impervious to all, but him. Her face faded away, a quiet smile lingered patiently Soon dissipated. A ghastly reflection that threatened to leave.
An she was gone A child's face that stared with such inocence. She was holding tight, and still, he smiled. He looked into here eyes and knew, he was the only thing holding her back. Her cold gaze penetrated deep into every bone, Shivers danced beneath his skin, playing a taunting game. He knew his smile was the only thing holding her back, his faltering smile. A warm tear, that turned into a cold sob. She closed her eyes, her hand went limp, he wished to move away. But still he held and tried, harder than he had ever wished before, to hold on. She lay before him a moment ago, and was here now. He didnt notice the men in white moving away, Or the monotone melody that once was fueled Bye her heart, and now remeined a melancholy note. He just saw her smile.
The same smile that now ent away. He cried,
And she was gone. He had failed her again, Once she danced in flesh full of life, And now she lingered, shallo wkin Painted with the pain dreamt up by memories
Her face haunted today, as yesterday, as ever. Icy blie eyes embedded into a cold slate of marble. A kind face, no longer warm, yet still inviting. Laughs muffled by stone impervious to all, but him. Her face faded away, a quiet smile lingered patiently And the cold left with her dissipating face. And she was gone, yet, Kept alive by simple Memories She was still here.
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Post by godsrighthand on Mar 4, 2005 1:45:24 GMT -5
Dayum, this is some gooood shit for a messican!!
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Post by animascura on Oct 27, 2005 12:27:28 GMT -5
So i think i figured out what it was about.
::instructs members to enter this thread and read my second poem that i posted (bright green letters)::
Read it yet>?
Like i said i wrote this forever ago and it probably made a lot of sense at the time, but i've re-read it and pondered and maybe i'm coming back to my conclusion, and maybe not.
I think this is the story of a man who lost his mother. I think that's the obvious part seeing "A drop of rain, a man insane, a mother For which tears remained "
I think that some tragedy occured where he lost his mother, and throughout his life he hadn't been ...kind to her. He didn't tell her that he loved or let her know that he appreciated all that she did for him. So when she died he held a burden knowing that she left without him telling her all of that. And throughout his life she pulled him through the tough times. This poem is /i think/ describing the day that, upon his death, he finally realized that inspite of his silence, she knew that he loved her the way she loved him, and was not angry at him at all or sad upon her own death. Something like that...maybe? does it make sense? Pehaps you guys can find a different interpretation of what i meant cause i honestly don't remember 100%
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Post by animascura on May 4, 2006 23:46:25 GMT -5
Since this site seems to be dead...This thread has now become my online portfolio. I will direct anyone to this thread directly whenever i wish to share my emo ^^
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Post by animascura on May 4, 2006 23:47:31 GMT -5
And so it falls But No onehears The echoing sounds Of sadness bouncing off The lonely walls As darkness falls The evening hours fade away A quiet moment Sitting still and watchful eyes are staring still At stars that duck and weave amongst the clouds hiding and seen. Precipitate a judgement And a sentence gives me purpose in a Life so filled with dreary thoughts unoccupied by time Instilling doubts and bring back fears of once upon a time She gave me hope and slipped beneath my feet her soul A monument on top and then she slipped And so it falls But no one hears The echoing ........
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Post by animascura on May 4, 2006 23:49:18 GMT -5
This is a poem i wrote after experiencing something.....maybe halfway towards a nervous breakdown. And how do i get rid of my angst and frustration and sadness? I write. This one, if i may be so bold and conceited as to assume, wasn't too bad. Enjoy, A crystal butterfly landing on A silver Tree. Slowly dancing down the crystal stairs leaves form as they play among the wind. It hums, Requiem of dreams. It drums, Melancholy beat To which slaves; chained to their commands; they row, sounding off the cues For my frail butterfly. To follow Step by step and, Take it slowly. Reach the top. Not with agility, or skill they stop. The only way to get there: Time. My butterfly, too fast, you fall Your fingers reach, but cannot seem to grab ahold of anything that's sane And so you hit, crystal on crystal Breaking fast, like liquid falling On the steel, the silver breaking glass and spreading you, my butterfly of fragments piercing everything around And building pressure, I grow dizzy trying to catch the pieces as they fall and piecing back together something Did not quite exist before. Silver Tree breaks glass. Don't know what's going on. You cannot breathe. Asphyxiated Butterfly, you cannot sing a song Or flap a crystal wing so shattered. Close your eyes and breathe, a tiny lump That leaves your throat seems monolithic. Open up your hand and let me grab My butterfly again. Set it down. Upon a silver tree So it can find A crystal leaf
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Post by animascura on May 11, 2006 3:47:50 GMT -5
"I need"
Sleep and help Some Peace Some health Need hapiness to Find itself Must replace books Upon their shelves Need quiet whispers in the night Need lullaby A soft gray light I need a spell that makes it right Some incantation, solve my plight. Need potions that can cure the dead And raise the sick within my head. I need A feeling, complete loss For when i lie in bed and toss So taciturn a scream i hear I need some Peace and quiet here. I need somone to lend an ear And comfort me, old friend held dear Need closed eyes And hollow sounds To pierce the silence all around Need nothing that i cannot get Lest it be followed by regret. Need nothing you can give me still Unless my demons you can kill. Need comfort, solace, everything Need nothing more, and not a thing Need pain, need fear, and dissonance Need nothing less, So it makes sense That i need nothing that i have. Need nothing that i cannot grab. Need nothing that's within my reach. Have nothing, and it's all i need.
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